Craving


CRAVING

I was having a craving

First it was for crawling back into bed

So, I did

I was having a craving

And it kept coming at me

I was having a craving

And I wanted to give in

I wanted to run out or drive out

Just, get to what I wanted

Because it was a pull that kept pulling

It would not back off

I was having a craving

So, I went to a meeting

And it subsided for a while

So, I thought it would be safe



To go out

And it was for a while

But then I got restless again

So, I went home

I went home

And I tried to distract myself

I wrote and I watched soap operas

But I was having a craving


And it still won’t go away


Because I’m having a craving


And the craving craves


So, I’m hoping for sleep


And hoping it will pas


But it is powerful


It is consuming


It swamps me


So, I have


To


Just let time pass


Don’t quit


And don’t give in


Because the craving craves


And the craving can never be filled

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