She Still Drank

She Still Drank

Hard to believe for someone who isn’t an alcoholic.

But for the active alcoholic, it is just another day.

I was just talking about drunk drivers killing people.

It makes me sick.

And yet I got very sick day after day pouring poison into my body.

I used to be so sanctimonious.
But I was committing assault ever day on myself.

I knew I shouldn’t drink.

But I did.

And of course because of my history with drunk drivers
and the wreckage they leave,
I always made sure to have enough provisions
so i wouldn’t have to go out.

Or if i did, you see the hypocrite.

If i did go out for more booze
I would drive the backstreets real slow and careful.

Or i would walk down to the market for wine.

I remember climbing up a very steep hill with a liter jug of wine.

I cursed myself while i was on my way.

But when I got home, exhausted, I filled a glass, sat on the couch.

And smiled at my accomplishment.